My new normal (she has moved out)

[amy1982]

Hi. I feel so sorry for you. I feel like I am just a step from facing what you are going thro right now. My husband is very hurt & bitter about some mistakes I have made & I am getting a lot of blame. We sure don't know how to communicate. My husband has stopped going to church because he feels like I have smeared his reputation. I don't agree but that doesn't change anything. He is spending a lot of his time w/ friends that feel the same way. They are hostile against me & 1 of them is his special friend. H e has made it clear that his friends come before me. I have been BD since apr & things just steadily get worse. I am up against some brick walls..his friends don't like me, he's in love w/ someone else,his friends have taken up a loose lifestyle & I no longer fit in,I had a PA after he had 2 EA but he wouldn't see them as affairs because they did not have sex..just kissing,buying gifts, spending time 2gether, saying I love you, etc. They killed me...I would have killed a dragon 4 him but he didn't want me 2 fight 4 him. I gave up & had a PA. He was very hurt but there was no longterm ill effects till the girl he loved moved next door. Then our marriage fell apart...11 mo later. I wish I new how to start my own thread bcause I need help, advice etc.
I pray she will see your loyalty & return. Take care