Last week of our trip: I discovered that he didn't stop contacting OW as promised. It's now a long-distance EA. I stumbled across emails when using his work computer on our trip. Sitting across from him in the hotel room, reading those emails, struggling to not let my anguish and pain show, was the single hardest thing I've ever done…
The gist of their relationship over the last 2 months:
H: I promised my wife I'd stop contacting you… but I don't really want to. It'll only be for awhile. OW: I'm sorry you're having problems in your marriage. I hope you'll work it out. H: For the first time since I set foot in this country, I found a friend I can open up to. OW: I'm dating someone…but… I feel protected by you. What if I told you I miss you… - - - - H: I'm falling in love with you. OW: I'm surprised and flattered. We hardly interacted while I was at the company. H: It was love at first sight. You're smart, beautiful, patient, sexy, naughty. OW: Are you sure you will have the same feelings after you know more about me? Don't you think we should get to know each other first? - - - - OW: Maybe we should have kept the promises we made (to stop). But it's hard to stop writing, hard to stop knowing more about you every day. H: Thinking about you is what keeps me going every day. Is it wrong? To me, NO, it’s not wrong. Should I stop doing it? I can’t and I won’t. OW: Since it's so difficult for you to stop writing, we shall just be happy and enjoy every single moment we share. - - - - - H: I dream of a future with you… I want us to grow old together. OW: Waiting for your emails and phone calls has become a part of my daily life. But I'm confused about us, about where I stand in all of this. I'm confused about your marriage. There're lots of uncertainties. H: I'm sorry for confusing you. I'll try to make it clear to you in the near future. OW: What are your plans? H: One step at a time. I want to fly to <where you are> to see you in the next few months. Then we'll nurture the relationship at your pace. - - - - H: I'm making a list of places to take you on a bikini holiday. OW: I can be your PA. My job duties will be: sleep well, eat well, play well, travel well within your means. Job scope: show my pretty face, killer smile and sexy body to you whenever you need me. - - - - - OW: I feel a special bond between us, a chemistry. But this is wrong. Are you sure you don't want to work on your marriage? H: Your heart is telling you something, just as my heart is telling me something. Please don’t let go of it. I think that something special can come out of it with time, something that I would like to explore with you together.
