Thanks for stopping by Snodderly, Miz J, UW, and Linda. I look forward each night to reading everyone's comments.
The disappointment over yesterday was still there this morning, but I got past it. I didn't want to have anything get in the way of a happy day for S3. Plus, I thought about the perspective UW has always taken - my wedding day is a special memory for me, it will always be a special memory for me. While parts of the day are a blur, there are other moments that are crystal clear in my mind. And they are all very happy.
And yes, no one can ever take that away from me.
I know I always say this, but I would love to know what went on in H's mind yesterday. Did he think about our wedding at all? Does he even remember it?
Linda, thank you for reposting what Snodderly put on your thread. She does pretty much rock
I feel like I have come this far, and I want to see this through. Plus, I want him to have the space and freedom to see it through. I believe he will.
It's the LONG time frame that makes it tough.
And the part about A's dying a natural death and not bad mouthing the tart so he has to defend her? Yeah, I totally see that. I like to even take it a step farther. By getting out of the way and focusing on yourself, the tart may begin to bad mouth you and your H may not like that or feel the need to defend you. Which of course will make her more insecure and angry...
Let her do all the dirty work of trying to control and manipulate him. We wives just stay out of the way
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The party was great! Both boys took good naps beforehand, so everyone was well rested and in a good mood
H was really nice today, very much like his old self. He didn't come up to bed last night. This morning he said that he barely slept, that he was itchy and didn't feel good.
I thought back to last year's party - he wasn't the bizarre alien he was like at S5's party a month before, but he texted the entire time, and was not very interested.
This year was much different. No texting, at least that I saw. Was social, and talked and socialized with our families. Seemed at ease.
I wore a new outfit today, and although he didn't say anything (of course!), I saw him checking me out several times.
At the end of the party, I asked my mom to take a picture of me, H, and the birthday boy.
Since the bomb, H typically tries not to be near me in pics, avoids any physical contact with me. Today, he plastered himself right next to me as I held S3 on my lap. It was like having a normal family photo taken.
This is going to sound weird... But I had this excited feeling when my mom was taking the picture. I couldn't wait for a moment alone to look at it.
So when everyone left and H went to shower, I looked at the picture.
H is actually smiling with his teeth showing, something he's stopped doing during MLC. And he looks normal, no strange look in his eyes or uncomfortable expression.
Looks like I got an anniversary present after all
Good night
Bomb January 2012 - doesn't feel the same about me
~ "There is nothing love cannot face; there is no limit to its faith, hope, and endurance."
