Back again... I don't know if I mentioned it or not but the JW appears to be such a sainted woman. She told H not too leave his family or tell me about her and that they would have their weekends just for them and H said no he was too miserable and had to get out. Now it can be all about them. Where has my hope gone?? One day I had it and knew I wanted to stand and do this and now it feels like I am right back where I started. I sound so whiny and needy and I cannot stop crying. I thought about writing him a letter and telling him how I really feel but in the beginning I did that and it had no effect whatsoever on him. But since I know about the JW now I have lots more to say. I know that it the last thing I should do right?? I just want him to feel some of this hurt that I am. I need to get s ome kind of grip and I think I had one and lost it....going to go get busy and clean the kitchen from top to bottom and quit crying. Now I have a crying headache....have a good night all and thanks for letting me rant like a maniac. L
