Try to be prepared for your feelings to fluctuate a bit, still.
That seems to be the normal way. But, gee, you sound like you've really accomplished some hard work on yourself.
I'm very impressed with your strength and personal insights.
Thanks for stopping by... I cannot stress enough how much I agree with you. I fully expect to be up/down more. I am starting to get a clearer image of who I am/was in my relationship with my W. I have faults and admit to those faults. I am working on changing me and trying to become a better person. I have much work to do ahead of me, codependency is one of those things I must work on.
I also am seeing much clearer of who I want as a spouse/ significant other in my life. I would rather be alone than to have my spouse put me down, use sex as a weapon, slap me, or generally not really care if I am here or not. I am worth so much more.
SD: today is a good day and now that I'm back i can feel the pull of my old thoughts. It is interesting how that works. I think things like major changes in thoughts and philosophy happen in stages. Some stages happen quickly while some take longer to develop. Perhaps it was the complete change in location and people that I had to talk to, that allowed some lucid thoughts to take hold. People that did not know me or my situation saying things about how much they liked hanging with me. I got to be me without thinking about my home life and recognize that I am not a troll, lol.
You can not change your past, but you can ruin a perfectly good present by worrying about the future.
