I noticed that twice (in the last 3 pages) you referred to what a great life you had before BD. Clearly your W did not feel this and, perhaps, you are looking at things differently now that W is gone. Did you really feel that happy before? If so, why were you so happy and W wasn't? What was W unhappy about? Has she told you? If not, can you figure it out? You have to 180 these issues and give her time.
Pressuring her and contacting her will make it worse. Every time you are tempted to contact her, you need to make the decision all over again about what you want. If you want to have a chance, you must choose not to contact her. Give her some space.
Originally, I was a WAW, later the LBH. When I was the WAW, my husbands pursuing me drove me further away because he didn't want to do the things I needed prior to me walking away. Eventually, I ended up the LBS, I had to stop calling, texting and trying to work things out. I did, and now we are sort of working on things. If I had not dropped things, I know we wouldn't be here.
You can do this! Be sure to GAL..no matter how small, the change will be noticed.
M 46 H 44 D 12 S 8 M 9 T 11 BD 2/15/13 "Makes sense to stay together" 5/12/13 Agree we are 'healing' 7/13 Definitely Piecing 9/13
