OK well today i think was a mostly good day. It had its ups nad downs. but i feel ok.. Infact for some short times during the day i did not think of W. I am more in the mind set today that I will be ok and God will restore the marriage at some point. so do not worry about things today let him do his work in W. I need to work on me as everyone said. many many times. Not sure what changed but I do feel of. here comes the negative but i will say it anyway. I just dont want to ever think the marriage cant be saved at some point and i do not want to forget about her. but that is bad thinking i know. so Im ok today just praying for a better day tomorrow. Thank you God for letting me have a good day today. also thank you for all you here