Thank you so much everyone for the quick and caring responses.
W's email revelation reminded me of how horrible I feel for my actions on that night in March last year. It truly hurts me to think that I have inflicted such lasting pain on the one I love the most. I hoped time, combined with my actions over the last 15 months would have healed this wound, but it doesn't sound like it has. Some say professional help will be required to fix this. Do you think this is true?
In a way, the revelation of this email may help me to stand, because it makes it easier for me to focus on her needs, (healing, feeling comfortable enough to trust) instead of my pain.
It also makes it easier to understand why she probably doesn't have an OM.
I have not brought up the incident since the first week after BD. Thanks to the consensus from all you fine folks here, I will continue to stick to this plan while being the best H I can be.
Gosh I love my girl and hope we can make it through this.
M: A really long time. Crisis: 5 years. She's still worth it.
Life is never made unbearable by circumstances, but only by lack of meaning and purpose. -Viktor Frankl
