Tough,tough day. Viewing for Grandpa. I worked a shift immediately before so showed up tired and hungry to first session. Meal in between.
W came to 2nd session with S16. S20 with me and D18 came on her own. 1st time we've all been in same place since Christmas I think. Not that my youngest two said more than one word to me. S16 neck was covered in hickeys...he was trying to cover with collar the whole time.
My family were champs...super kind to her, hugs and kisses. I was pissed at her, for no particular reason other than we are separate during this. I was nice, and she stayed most of the 2 hr session. When she went to leave I said thanks for coming and didn't walk her out. I knew I might be clingy if I did that.
If I am honest I admit sometimes my primary thought is screw her. But I do still love her. That is my choice.
I asked her how S16 has been. She said he's being bad. I said I can tell. She said she can't handle him.
Of our kids, S16 was closest to my grandpa, and she's bringing him to funeral tomorrow. I decided to sing the song. I will also be speaking. There are two examples from grandpas life I want my kids, nephews, nieces to hear and it may be last time S16 will hear me for a while. A few hilarious stories to tell, too.
Me 46 W 43 S 21 D 18 S 17 M 22 yrs Discovered OM 9/10/12 W moved to sister's 9/15/12 W moved to OM 9/27/12 Tried to DB until 7/13 W filed 10/7/13. Did not serve. I counter filed 12/2/13.
