Riding the storm out, or at least trying to!

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Oh girl, trying to pick up some of that PMA.

My H also has an event tonight -- centered around wine & women. He wasn't going to come home "between" either but ended up having to take me to a repair shop to get the Mustang. I was quiet.

I'm trying not to be sad. There is so much positive. But I'm not gonna say it doesn't hurt.

I took the long way home in the 'Stang -- perfect weather and country roads lush with greenery and yellow flowers abounding -- but my heart just wasn't in it even though I repeatedly tell myself I've taken back my heart so he can't hurt it.

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I can't believe he let you hold his phone -- lol! And I love that he cracked your back for you.

I was just reading in my journal from last year how my H first resented me and had "no feelings" and then a year later moved to having compassion but not "in love" and I would dare say a year later now possibly loving feelings but not really "in love" ... so a year from now?

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uRw has some awesome posts for you. I really wish your mom could take the boys and you could hang out with her for a weekend!

Happy happy birthday to S3! I clearly have very happy memories of each of my boys' third birthdays. What a special time in their lives. I'm so glad you have been the rock for them. And I'm glad, as hard as it's been on you, for their sake -- that H is still at home.

Is it 11th anniversary for you then?