Any hope???

[Emilys88]

went and bartended last night with the roller derby, had a blast.

been a little down today, cant believe the D will be final next month.

im makeing huge changes for myself and working on bettering myself by going to college, getting involved with derby, looking for a summer job/part time, spending time with friends and family, working on controling my temper, talking with my IC, and when i do talk to stbx i dont talk about R or argue with him.

But with all of that deep down i still miss him and want him back. I know i deserve better and to be with someone who wants to be with me. Maybe this is my impatience coming out again, i know it will take time, i guess i thought it would be better by now though.