it would probably give me a hell of alot of peace of mind if someone official just said "you're nuts" so lump that.
sometimes i feel like it- like old ancient star trek episodes where everything was some alternate universe - and good old jim kirk made some alien blow himself up thru sheer il-logic. you know- the good old days.
i don't particularly WANT TO BE - BUT alot of days it seems like a likely possibility.
tonite- i'm tired as heck- it's (da da dummmmm) weekend- at this moment all i can think about is maybe having a sleeping pill (only got about 5 or 6 hrs last nite) and the little varmits in the middle school today.
i still can't believe how much nerve these kids have- stare ya rite in the eye and do not flinch- i mean, i say sit and they just look rite at my face and say i don't want to.
like- what does it matter what they want??? i never saw the likes-
anyway- i may not be exactly "prevailing" - but i'm not defeated either (by a long shot>)
we'll see what next week brings. it's soooo wierdly challenging and i keep going back. maybe years of mother & h have made me a abuse sponge???!!Q! who knows...
anyway- rite now i'm usually stewing and hating h- i don't care rite now. he can go to He!!. i keep thinking of you saying about stfu- and dbing and so on.
nope- i got nothin. hope you have a good nite and your anger has abated and you're feeling more at peace with the universe.
i wish i could invite you to beach this weekend (tho it's raining - sadly) - nobody wants to go down and i don't feel like going alone. too dreary-
oh well huh???? I AM ENJOYING the chilly weather tho. a couple days in teh 90s made me love this dreary rany cold weather- i'm kind of hoping the summer is a chilly one (don't tell anyone above the mason dixon line i said that...shhhhhh
i got nothin (did i say that already- )
have some wine and think of me - lonely , but with several good books, a million "chores" & projects and some wine. even visited mom and did my duty- free nite and no having to get up at 5 tgomorrow.
