I took a Xanax, watched Star Trek, and went to bed early. LOL.
Down to 205 right now. Hit a wall on the C25K thing. I think it's because I'm eating at a 1000 calorie deficit to lose two pounds a week, and that only leaves me about ~1350 calories to eat. Once I hit 200, I'm going to switch to a 500 calorie deficit and try the C25K again. Still weightlifting religiously. Wearing 34" pants and size L shirts, been getting rid of all sorts of clothes lately.
Nothing new on the D front. We have a status hearing later this month. My L said I don't need to be there, so I'm not going. It's my way of having a little bit of control, I guess.
Felt a lot of anger yesterday and today at the STBX for this. I own all this mistakes that led to the BD, but the D is on her. She's the one who chose this, she's the one who refused to be grown-up about this, the one who made it ugly. If this is so easy for her, then she's not the person I fell in love with and who needs her anyway?
