I did go to therapy and I did disclose everything.
The T was OK and it went OK. Not great, not bad.
He wants to keep seeing me, yet will look for someone more specialized for me. This is normal and I understand the logic of it, yet feel push off.
After today on here and T I am feeling very rejected and worthless.
I'll be back, yet need to leave for now, be it an hour or a day or longer.
I feel I babble and spin and like I just don't live up to the help I am given.
I am embarrassed and feel I said some thing I shouldn't have.
I feel hurt. I am having the feeling of quitting again, I need to look at why other than what I just said.
Later.
JP, for a professional to basically admit that you need someone with more experience in a certain area, means he really cares about you and he is good enough to know that even with all his own knowledge, he needs help to help you.
That is huge, some therapists would not admit this, or even know themselves well enough to do this. You have made it all about the rejection of you when it is actually the acceptance and love of you.
Do you see this at all? Do you see that everyone here as well accepts you? Sure we call you out on your sh*t, that's what friends do.
