round and around we go

[willbwell]

I couldn't read the responses yesterday. I had to put the computer away. I was covering my ears and my eyes. Here I was thinking, detach so h will miss me and want to come back to me instead of detach so I can learn to move on without H.I don't think H wants to come back at this point.
I am more calm and peaceful today. Such strong emotions still rise up in me. Life is not fair, it is how we choose to respond. I know all of this.
I am pleasant when H is around. I have stopped asking the kids if their dad has called.
Not blaming H is something I am going to have to work on.