Hoping for WAS to come home

[JaxFL14]

Hello, this is my first post and I have completed 3 telephone sessions with Chuck. My wife told me on April 1st that she thinks she wants a divorce. Said she loves me but not in love anymore, said that I'm am awesome, that she could never find anyone better and she's prob making a huge mistake but she just wants to be alone. Says that she doesnt feel we have the passion or spark that a married couple should. To which I say, 3 kids under 6 and always been poor which is stressful. Doesn't believe that marriage has to last forever and that she will never be remarried again. We hardly ever fought, no nagging, got along great, parent great together with our S:5, S:4, and S: 8 months. She has been taking anti depressants since our 5 year old was born and said these feeling started when she got pregnant with our youngest son and never went away. She realizes everyone thinks its her depression but she says no and I myself think she's not acting depressed. She has been moved out for about 1.5 months now and she rented a house. I'm a fire fighter on a 48 hrs on and 72 hours off schedule and I have the boys everyday that I'm not at work. She owns her own salon. She said she felt trapped in marriage and doesn't want to be held accountable to anyone. She says there is no one else, and won't be anyone. And I believe her cause I've checked. I just had to know the truth. She thinks we are still a family but we just aren't together, even wants to still go on our vacation to her parents in MD in August together as planned. To which I say ?????????. I truly hope after some time on her own she realizes she wants this family together but I have to be realistic also. We have been together 10 years and married 7.5. I do not call her, text her or talk to her about us. Only about the kids. Don't send her cards or flowers or say I love you. She not willing to try marriage counseling at this time but said we will see how it goes. I'm doing everything I can to follow chucks advice on how to treat a walk away spouse. It's just so hard be patient. I want my family back together. Any advice or support would be appreciated greatly. I have not heard anyone with this same story to the point where she says I'm awesome and never tells anyone I did anything wrong, she just wants to live alone. Said she a diff person. Went from a Christian republican 7 years ago to an agnostic democrat now. That's def a change I'd say.

Me:33
W:32
S:5
S:4
S:8 months
M:7.5
Together 10