My company only works half days on Friday's. So, I'm going to mow the lawn when I get off. May take the girls swimming this evening.
To be honest, right now I'm just trying to stop crying. I've been crying for a good 3 hours now off & on. It comes in waves. Also doing all I can to not contact H. I just want to go off on him & let him know how big of a pos he is. He can't even call his daughters at night. There is so much I want to say to him. A part of me wants him to come home tomorrow & tell me he's leaving. I want him to pack his bags & just go away. I'm also fighting sending that letter to OW right now. I would love to text her.
HUGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I had my 8 year anniversary during this. CRY!! Don't stuff it, it only makes it worse.
Oh boy, do I know fighting the urge to contact OW. But, it won't make you feel better or change anything for the better. Just keep repeating that. Over and over. Because, really...it won't. Feel all your feelings. Maybe get a sitter and go get a mani/pedi. Treat yourself!
We are here for you, we are! You will get through this. But feel it, even though it hurts so bad. If you do, the next time hurts less.
M: 9 yrs T: 13 yrs H:34 Me:35, S4, D2, S 7 months Dday 11/12-PA & multiple PAs Dbing 12/12 S 1/13 7/13 H moved back in basement. 8/13 #3 born 10/13 still cheating 10/13 He moves across country, I file for D
