Absolutely understandable and valid feelings. Don't try to stop crying. Let it out. It cleanses us. Val reminded me once that our hurt and pain manifest as anger, just like a child. That's why you want to give him everything you've got right now. To hurt him. But how would that truly benefit you? Would you regret lashing out at H or OW tomorrow?
Don't contact them. Keep your power. Don't give it away. "Text" me here. Tell me everything you want to say to him or the OW.
Then step outside of yourself. If you were watching a friend go through this today, what would you say to them? What would you want say to 'yourself' about these feelings?
Me(F):40 WAW:44 T:13yrs M:9yrs BD:2/12 (I saw a text) ILYBINILWY: 5/12 PA admission: 12/12 (began 3/11) S:2/13 Moves in w/AP D begins: 7/13 W moves home to R: 10/13