I understand how you feel. This is a very very difficult thing we are going through and you did nothing to deserve this, you did everything you could to prevent this.
Please try an Alanon meeting it will help. Alanon says when you have difficult meetings or appointments you should bookend the meeting with positive phone calls or Alanon meetings.
I know it is such a waste, what they are doing. Such a waste. But its our job as a mom to turn lemons into lemonade. You can do it. Dont give up, you are doing it for them. Your kids love you not your money.
Think about how many great days are ahead of us and our kids - graduations, weddings, love and children. They have so much great stuff ahead of them show them a happy way to get through the tough times.
"The only way through hell is through" or something like that
---- M 39 H 35 D5,D4 M 4 T 9 ILYBNILWY 5/18/11 Left 7/11/11 Divorced 12/1/13