Oh TVS, how it hurts me that you are in such pain.
I promise this will all be worth it in the end. No one can predict what will happen with your M, but even if it does not work out, you will be able to know that you gave it all you could, that you have no regrets that you should have done something differently.
You have had such sad things happen to you, things that no woman should have to live through. God must have great plans for you!
Fondly, Linda
PS thanks UR, your post to TVS helped me a lot too