No longer treading water, must either sink or swim

[Grizz]

I can't thank you all enough for your support. I have not been on here much this week. It's been kind of crazy here. Both girls have rebounded fairly well. D4 still doesn't really understand. D8 will ask occasional questions. One that really got to me was when she asked if Mom and I would both still come to her birthday parties.

I think I have been doing really well with showing strength to my girls.

We haven't been to counseling yet but I have definitely thought about it.

W moves out on Saturday. I am going to have the girls out of town for the weekend. Sunday night they will stay with her. I expect that to be a rough couple of nights.

W and I have been getting along fairly well this week. We have done more stuff as a family this week than a long time. I guess everyone is feeling kind of sad that this is the last week together. The sadness is not showing however which is good. Just nice times together. Tonight is the last night we will all be together at home. That is very sad to think about.

I am in a much better place now than several months ago. However, it still $ucks and it is still very sad. I still love her more than the world but there comes a time when we have to move on and, I guess, that starts this weekend.

Wish me luck and keep me in your prayers. Thank you all.