Jaytee, I am slowing recovering as I found out last month he is involved with a OW. I went NC and got an email from him stating that he is trying to move on but does not know if he will ever get over us and it still hurts. He said he missed my family and my kids who loved him. He said he would always love me. Like your ex, he is a runner. He has aplogized for his behavior in the relationship but he has never sought help even when he lost everything including his family, my family, and his friends. Like you, I have humbled myself and asked for forgiveness for my part of the relationship. When we first got together and was going to marry, I brought up my concern of him being born of an affair and having attachment problems. He stated that this was irrelevant but the counselor disagreed. I wish back then that I would have left our relationship as it would have saved a lot of hesrtache. As for us, we know the outcome of their new relationships. All we can do is work on us!
