Just putting out thoughts. I think I'm entering the anger phase. I'm starting to get to the point of not really caring if it worked or not. I do better to not see her and when I do I get pissed. There's parts of me that want to move forward and not look back. We had a little issue transpire yesterday here's the convo she sent me a text out if the blue hasn't seen her in 2 day.
W: "the more I think about all the past years I get angrier and angrier. And I'm not getting past it. I'm angry and sad at the same time. I asked you for years to change in my own way."
Me: I understand. I'd like to be able to make it better however I can't. We've both choices and decisions tht have us at this point. I know I've hurt u I do and I'm extremely remorseful.
W: I'm just trying to hold onto friendship at this time
Me: I know.
W: I battle through everyday
Me: Can we please talk?
W: There is nothing to say
Me: God is the great redeemer of all things
W: Well there is no redeeming this
W: All I need now is to rebuild any self confidence I had
Me: You're a amazingly strong and gifted woman.
By this time I was at our home. We talk and she gives me all the script even when I didn't suggest or bring up any R talk it was her but she said it was me. Then she asked me to go eat with her. I'm just really feeling like I need to set boundaries. Just getting really angry. She's making time for all the things I asked for a while ago but she was too tired now she can do certain things. I'm sure there are vets here with advice. I'm all ears. I've prayed about it and I know what I should do but it's still not easy. I have so much PRIDE.. And I know what cometh before pride.
