Becoming PatientMan II - Still En-Route, Post-D

[Tryin2figuritout]

Hey PM,

Thanks for the congrats and best of luck. Each day brings new opportunities and challenges to make into opportunities. It's been one week since the first mention of trying for the MRS, but it's put me in flux in my emotions. Not that I don't want to work at it, but it just juggles you so much just as much as the D being final for you. You knew it was coming and I thought there was a potential for my W to change her mind, but doesn't mean it will not mess you up.

I'm obviously stoked at our recent discussions, but I can't tell you how bad the undertow has been into panicking. Trying to focus again on what I can control without getting ahead of myself. I feel like I need to be patient for both me and the MRS as she scares herself with not wanting to go back to where we were just a few months ago (which I don't want either).

Enough of my crapola, you have been an inspiration to me in my journey and I know you'll continue to be. It's wonderful taking time to focus on one's self and really making those positive changes. I've always thought I had to give everything of myself to my kids not realizing if I don't take care of myself how much I'd lose. Now that I see how much focusing on me and being the best me possible provides more opportunities to be the great dad, husband and person for everyone in my life. It's just a matter of perspective, patience and focus. Just glad to be here!!

Trying