My story

I have been married for now 13 years just last year before my Young's son's 8 birthday this W comes to my house and handed me a letter saying that my H and her where having an affair. And they just ended it not to long ago and she thought it was the right thing to do to let me know about it. It broke my heart and every emotions came out. I had confronted him about it and he said it was all true. Well its been almost a whole year since then and now I just found out he is now texting someone new and he told me that they have a special connection to each other and its his way to release sexual tension. Its because we haven't been intimate for the last 8 years so that is why he strayed from our marriage. I know part of this is my fault for not being itimate with him. I had asked him to stop texting this new W and let us work on our marriage and he soppostly told her that I had found out about their special relationship and she told him if I was to every try to contact her in anyway she was going to press charges against me for harassment and he would not consider to make our marriage work at all. I have done everything that Sandi 37 said not to do. But that was before I actually read that post. Now I'm trying to follow it but its so hard . I really love my H with all my heart he wasn't just my husband but he was my best friend. And know I'm scared that my marriage is completely over. He tells me that he wants our marriage but there is no spark there and he needs time to think and to do soul searching because he has mix emotions now. He does security for a church and he is planning to meet with the bishop about this situation that we are in. I had asked him if I would meet with tbs bishop too. But he says wait till he had the chance to meet with him first. I don't know if I can believe him. I just want to get my marriage back and my best friend back but I don't know how to do that. I know their are couches on here but I can't afford to sign up for their help. I have been reading other post's on here and I know that I'm not alone but I do feel like that cause I just don't know how to repair my marriage. I have tried to show more affectionate towards him but he just like is not emotionally here. I know that he needs time to figure out what he wants but how long I'm I surprise to keep going this way.


M:42
H:37
M:14yrs
S:13; S:9
Found out PA:8/2012
2nd PA & still w/OW:4/2013
H asked for D:6/2013
H moved out: 8/2013
H & OW moved in together: 8/2013