You're not there yet, and that's OK.

Sit with the emotions, they change soon enough. Ignoring them just helps them stay around longer.

Dive in to that hurt, the water's fine.

Me 57/H 58
M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13

Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do.
I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.
Caroline Myss