I said hello to a newcomer on the forum yesterday. Bless him, I felt his desperation and urgency. I relayed that I understood that feeling and just wanted him to know that it doesn't feel like it but that he has so much time and nothing has to happen quickly. I'm trying to sit with my own advice. I've been posting lately about that feeling of "I'm done." I still have trouble shaking it.
It's got to be b/c W and AP are on a trip together. I feel so hurt by it. Really. I know I am releasing that as anger. So if I can recognize this behavior why am I having trouble ending it? It feels like maybe a stitch in the detachment thread that I'm having trouble pulling out.
My boundries might be to close to me. I think I need to put more distance in them for a little while and surround myself with more protective space in my interactions with my W and in my thinking. Today at least, it feels like my weakend boundries are allowing expectations to creep in and rattle my emotions.
Me(F):40 WAW:44 T:13yrs M:9yrs BD:2/12 (I saw a text) ILYBINILWY: 5/12 PA admission: 12/12 (began 3/11) S:2/13 Moves in w/AP D begins: 7/13 W moves home to R: 10/13
