i know. it's a matter of time- THIS LIFE cannot go on as it is. This h-flash flood of mine has totally obliterated my little world - and carried it all away. every bit of it.
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Consider me smoothed! Like a pebble on the beach just waiting, laying around catching a wave!
my edges are gone too - it's a waiting game- finding a good job that will actually support me- some turn in my "road of life" that sends me around some bend - you know my drill here... I can see the element age playing a big part in this- just lack of youthful energy . sounds silly to even me- but tiredness - it's something to be dealt with
this job ends soonish- few more weeks of school. it's been "getting my feet wet" - working again. gets me out of house and entertained & quit thinking. taking advantage of time i'm allowed here = don't worry bout me - i DO KNOW
however- this one day at a time mode- today i do not give a damn - about h or life or what the heck i'm doing with it all.
not worried. just don't care to the bone - good or bad attitude?
dunno - house a mess - garden a mess - life a mess - pick one -
on a more interesting note -
I met shop owner at beach who would like me to make her some little custom pottery things she needs to incorporate in her own creations- i'm going to go cut them out & create in five minutes - feel good - (bit of income too ) - (& pleasant hobby activity) i've been interested for awhile in finding some "ingredient" to make for other artists - rather than finished creations. this may be something along that line - small but okay to explore..
better $$ return on time spent - less pressure to create for $$ (which takes the fun out of something you do for love ) -
i've noticed it with re-selling antiques & dolls. it's more fun to shop- search - find & identify (all things for pleasure) and then just resell - rather than actually creating things to sell. much better way to go - if you can do it. yay ebay- it's a bother - but certainly an interesting resource out there for anyone!
one more little interesting iron in the fire here- tra la..
if i won that lottery this minute - i'd call and say get out of my life and leave me be. I'll go buy a ticket -
have a good day- - xxo and hope you're okay- i'm feeling at the end too. it's wierd - isn't it? this notion that you can just let it all go and float away and not care any more -
we're both tired dearie - i guess i'm hanging on one more day- (???)
