Luckily with my validation I was only majorly hung up on a guy from my past...I had a major crush. He wasn't at the best place and while gave me compliments and tried to help with my self esteem, he wasn't able to be my rock when I needed one.
My second test was a bit of fun and woke up my aching heart. Old boyfriend came back into my life. If nothing else, the experience reminded me that I could feel those feelings again and that I was still attractive to someone.
I didn't rush off and sleep with anyone because I was reminded that I wanted it to mean something even now. So I am still at 2 which is what works for me.
kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory
