"I know this is purely mindreading, but wondering what it could suggest?"
In your case, "wondering" is a bad thing. I don't see why you can't just concentrate on yourself rather than constantly wondering what your H is thinking.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
