I'm guessing that the pressure you feel having to take care of your D 24/7 is stressful. I don't know if I or anyone has asked you, do you get any respite to take care of your D so that you can go out and have a break?
It is nice to know that your D has a chance to walk again and I do hope that one day the two of you can go on that run.
With the anger that is pent up in you, and I say this with complete respect to what your life looks like right now, I wonder who you would blame for your life if your H was dead.
You may feel justified to be angry with your H, but the reality is if he was dead, your life would be the same. And we can rationalize that and say, "but he's NOT dead". But it remains... what ever his reason for not being around is no bearing on how happy your life is.
Just FYI, in MLC circles there are labels for "types" of MLC. There are those who are called "vanishers" and basically just disappear. If it weren't for my kids, that would be my stbx. Sounds like that's your H, as well.
