" Rather than smile through another meetup and have her frustrated (at me) that we didn't bring up anything up, I just asked if she wanted to talk about anything."
See this sums up a bunch of things. You were still living with expectations on how you believe she should have acted or re-acted. You haven't had a chance to let that part go. You let the fear of having the other shoe drop that it was always nagging at you.
When you GAL, you aren't clinging onto that. I know how hard it is with an OM, I really do. It took 3 years before my W even talked to me for ANYTHING even small talk. She would silently sit there and not say a word.
Your W can sense your clinginess. And as a guy, you have to be the one to lead and not have her walk all over you. If you are going to file, don't do it because SHE isn't doing anything. Do it because YOU want to and that YOU feel that you deserve better. That's when you get your power back and your self-esteem back.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
