round and around we go

[willbwell]

I've read the books and many others as well! I go over Sandi's tips. H doesn't complain, never did...maybe part of problem, let the little grievences build up. I know my role. I made fun of his job(disrespectful)I can be a smart alec. Sometimes I am opionated.We have different politics. I get more outraged than he does.I am more messy whereas he is a very orderly. He wanted more sex than I did. I'd turn away. Thought we had solved that one though. we just needed change in timing(AM vs PM)
I have plenty of GAL'S. I am taking classes. I see my friends and family regularly. I do yoga 3x's a week at least. I am engaged and involved with my kids. I am spiritual and know beauty and laughter... why in the world would he leave. I'm pretty great really!
180's are hard. he isn't around too much to notice changes. here's what I'm trying. Not talking so much, listening, Saying thankyou always. putting on makeup and dressing nice whenever he's around. I'm more of a ponytail, jeans & tshirt girl.
The process I know, but I miss talking and sharing with my H.