things went south

[BC39]

Thanks Tallula,

I think a PA would be a deal breaker for me. And then lying about it this whole time would be, I think, a deal breaker for me.

I don't know what to think about anything sometimes. If you asked me a couple years ago if a EA and kissing would be a deal breaker for me I probably would have said yes, but here I am fighting for my marriage everyday.

A little background on my thoughts:
A year ago I caught her texting OM, that's how the relationship was exposed. I took the phone from her and read SOME of the texts back and fourth between them. Nothing suggested they had sex. I contacted OM to confront him. I asked him to tell me what happened. His story was the same as the one she gave me. (But they had time to talk in between so who knows).

Wife and I work together. My parents also work with us. W and I are together 98% of our life. When we separated for a few weeks my W went to work everyday (with my family) and I worked from home. After work she stayed at our best friends house down the street. I always knew where she was and made sure she was leaving and getting back when she should be. So I knew where she was MOST of the time.

I`ve checked all phone records, they match the times she said they spoke. I`ve checked all her email accounts.

OMW caught him last week (a year later) by checking his phone history. Her and I spoke extensively and spoke about stories, timelines and phone records. They all match. But again W and him could have concocted a story at time of BD.

I guess there will never be a way of confirming 100%.

When I'm in dailt interactions with my W I think "there's no way she did actually sleep with him and has been lying this whole time". But I have vivid memories of her lying to my face on sociopathic level a year ago (this coming from a women that previous to this couldn't keep a white lie from showing on her face).