Still going through your responses, I did want to ask a quick question.
I didn't realize until Karen posted on another of your topics and see a reference to it here, by you.
When you say your "sexuality is unclear" are you saying you're bi-curious or you think you may actually be gay? Karen mentioned open M so I'd also like to know, is your room mate a sexual partner of yours?
I'm trying to get a context here and these things could be very important so that we can help support you as best we can.
As far as a L, generally speaking one can get a consultation without having to retain. Maybe you might have to pay, others will provide free consults. Try to get a couple L opinions if you can.
