Hi Bluedown. I too am struggling with regret big time. I am what iffing myself crazy!! I am just trying to keep moving forward as much as possible and working on GAL. I know how hard it is. And as for the loneliness that is another issue of mine. It washes over you and covers you like a blanket. I spend lots of time here reading and reading my DB books. It helps me to know I am not alone in this struggle and there are many people here to walk this road with us. Take care of YOU and just hang in there as best as you can. Sending lots of hugs and comfort.
