Taking My Space - Giving Spouse Theirs

[RealityTrip]

GAL success last night. Went out with my W's BFF and some other great people downtown to dinner and then a walk. It can be fun to be a tourist in your own town. Got some great pics. I uploaded them to the big blue social media site, since I live away from all of my family, I'm pretty active on social media as a means to keep in touch with my sisters, parents, cousins, etc... It keeps us close and gives them a chance to be part of my life on a daily basis.

After I loaded the pics I wondered about my W. I missed her, I had a great time but there was definitely something missing... her. I was very tempted at the end of the night to text her that I was thinking of her and she was missed by everyone during our evening. But I didn't. As I walked my dog before bedtime the dialogue was:

"She isn't texting you that she misses you and wishes you were there on the lake with her and the AP. You're tired. Just go to bed."

Went to bed. Lying there, tempted again. New internal dialogue:

"She isn't lying in bed texting you. What she IS doing is lying in a bed that is not yours with a person that is not you. Go to sleep."

So I went to sleep. Reminding myself that God is working in her life so I don't have to and He's much better at it than I ever was. :)(releasing the need to control)

When I GAL with new friends and new experiences that are my own, it's much easier than when I am with our mutual friends, especially the close ones, doing things we normally did as a married couple with them. Last night's GAL was wonderful but really hard because of that.

Onward, forward. Tonight we see a play.