speaking of "fun" i suppose i could always call up his ow- tell her in my best lying earnest fashion that he is dying to marry her and it's only his insecurity and inability to speak that is stopping him. she should really "pour it on" and convince him of something he desperately wants... but is to screwed up to broach-
that could be funny - couldn't it???
i know, - it's soooo awful to think about - these screwed up guys workin really hard to destroy the happiness of perfectly nice women who loved them.. what can one even say?
everyone always says no one has a perfect life- without pain and conflict, etc.
i keep telling me that this is my "turn" for the downside of life. i shudder to think if it had happened when i was alot younger. i'd have been more resilient or marketable maybe- but then i'd have spent more years being icky and suspicious as fallout. no justice.
on good days i wonder what the exciting and adventurous conclusion of our journey will be? five years from now- all of us- any of us - sipping pina colatas with new loves - smelling the roses across the yard - cooking cookies, watching movies- raking the lawn - cold noses - just someone to share day to day little pleasures with- fingers crossed for humanity
thanks for being out there and weighing in-
every little bit of contact and input helps.
i guess we'll all get thru it all - one way or the other- fingers crossed.
