fear has a protective quality too... like not touching a hot stove..
and only you know how hot that stove (contact with X) is right now
and this is your opportunity to use each contact to create awareness and growth...to put yourself first for once and to practice boundaries..
and to sit with the fear and find out more about who you are.
you may have already done all of this in your recent self work..... but i think those same fears will come up in other Rs until we can become so intimate with them that they lose some strength.. what are your characteristic ways of defending yourself when fear arises? what beliefs about yourself and others (including x) are under the fear?
Me(f): 51 W: 41 DP:8 M:3 T:10 "W not happy" 7/11 D final: 8/13