Taking My Space - Giving Spouse Theirs

[RealityTrip]

I sat in the drive thru line at Starbuck's for 20 minutes so of course my thoughts went all over the place. I'm still fighting that feeling of "This is it. If she doesn't come back from this trip with her AP and make some decisions, I have made mine. I'm done." I think this is coming from the hurt that she is with the AP after having told me she "ended it." I knew to expect relapse form her... Doesn't make it easier though. I keep trying to remember... "marathon, not sprint."

So for myself, here is what I can recognize. Things have changed for the better since I started DB'ing:

1- our communication is better
2- my W is more honest with me, even if I don't like what I hear
3- the affair has been cracking and she has tried to end it
4 - we were intimate for the first time in a couple of years
5 - I am learning a lot about myself and the kind of spouse I want to be
6 - I am beginning to uncover patterns from my childhood that have shaped my previous "marital skills"
7 - I am stronger

I have got to shake this "resolution now" thinking that my pain from their trip together is forming like a protective bubble in my head.

InIt, I'm with ya girl! It's going to be a great week for both of us! Because we decide it will be!