I spoke with him today for a few minutes -- he called me to ask about when he'd be getting served (tbqh I don't know -- I've been letting my lawyer handle all that) and after we talked about that, I asked him how he was. He was initially really surprised, but then relaxed and talked for maybe 10 minutes about how he's afraid for his job, and is in the process of moving to a cheaper apartment in anticipation of both that and the difficulties he'll be facing with treatment. He's really scared, and, I think, lonely.
I'm squishing all my hopefulness about "us" into a ball and filing it away somewhere, because he didn't ask about me at all (he stopped doing that back in Nov.) and because he specifically was calling about the filing process. I do think he was reaching out, and is feeling some regrets/nostalgia, but I don't think he wants to get back together or anything. I know that's in part because we weren't always good together (we were both really angry and resentful of each other for large chunks of last year), but it is what it is.
I'm going to call him tomorrow after getting an update from my lawyer, and, if I feel up to it, I'll see if he wants to talk more.
Me: 30 H: 29 M: 2 yrs T: 5 years BD: 12/14/12 Divorce talk begins 1/6/13 I filed: 5/20/13 -- no contact since
