Thanks T. I've learned a ton about myself during this process. The biggest 2 that stick out is I am ACOA and codependent. I'm in counseling for both because I frankly do not like these traits. My W is not wrong with all of her complaints. Problem is she is ACOA and passive/aggressive. She refuses to work on herself so all I have left to do is work on me.
I do not like the akwardness of not initiating conversations. Problem is when I do I get my hand burnt from touching the hot stove. Last night was the most akward with her sitting in living room with me for 1/2 hour. I stayed busy on my laptop and after 1/2 hour she went upstairs. My W is completely detached from me. Sort of my role model of detachment.
What I've learned is the last 2 times we R were probably false starts. Even though WAS/MLC/Crazy Train showed they recommitted they truly didn't..
I am in a much better position this time around. I'm not going crazy trying to figure out crazy. Just working on myself, detaching, definitely doing more GAL and picking up hobbies I lost track of
