Dawn,

I loved the quote above. And I agree with you - the innocence is gone. We may have gained wisdom and strength, but we lost innocence and the belief that love would conquer all and the specific belief that those who love us will always love us.

I find that not only do I not trust anything that my xSO said; I wonder what else in our lives did he lie about? What else is hidden in the depths? I am also finding it hard to trust what others say. I used to trust.

I also had to learn to trust myself again. To be truly independent. I did but at an enormous personal cost. I learned I was as fallible as anyone else.

Dawn, trust yourself. If you can't make a decision that means you are not ready to make one. That is OK. It's a big decision. We support you whatever decision you may make.