No need to apologize for anything - we always have the tissue ready around here. Sometimes I just want to howl but the urge is coming less and less these days.
I find a walk or a drive will lift my spirits. A nap with my cat helps, too. I simply try to remember that I am still alive, able to move forward from this and can still make my dreams come true.
I am not sure if my xSO has a GF now. The last time we spoke he was "visiting" his GF again after about a month apart. I realize I should not assume anything but if I had to guess, I would guess that they are back together. I would also guess that they are back together and that plays a big role in why he has not contacted me.
Of course, that is only my guess. But she was going through her divorce and seemed quite needy to me. No less than we all feel when going through a D/S or break up. But instead of focussing on her and her kids, she hooked up with my xSO. And he went back for more as of two months ago.
All of the advice is not to worry about the OP. But it is hard especially because for the MLCers that leave, these are not affairs, they are "relationships".
The embarassing thing is, prior to BD, I never guessed that there was someone else, let alone someone he called his GF.
