I have realized that things might be becoming too comfortable. H being a live in MLCer who doesn't spew often, and who's behavior doesn't dramatically differ from pre-bomb behavior gives me an illusion that all is "as usual", that all is "comfortable".
H even has been making "future" comments... as in "what I want to do to the house in the future...", and "I have realized I could never live in Canada again..."
I have no idea what if anything these comments mean to him, or what they could mean to me/us. But the meaning I do pick up is the possibility that this status quo could continue indefinitely. Because its familiar, its easier than some other choices, because its comfortable.
So I feel I need to get uncomfortable. Because I don't want a continuation of this current state.
I'm not sure yet what this will mean for me. Pushing my limits, edging out of my box, growing - with all the associated pains. Getting uncomfortable.
But first I would like to "get over" this intestinal malaise, so, for now just thinking, ruminating, researching, considering. Still have to phone the school too. (I am giving myself a pass on not following through last week due to extenuating circumstances.)
Originally Posted By: LindaM
Are both of the boys going on the class trip to FL? That will be so fun for them! When are the States?
They both signed up, paid up, and attended the class. But only 1 does track, which unfortunately conflicts with the trip. So DECISION MAKING TIME for S16. Other S16 leaves on the trip tomorrow - will be odd to have them apart.
State is this Fri & Sat.
Off to contend with never ending laundry, get ready for work etc. Wishing the best to all who read this.
Me 46 H 56 M 22 yrs S22, D20, Twin Ss18
You teach people how to treat you by what you allow. What you stop. And what you reinforce. ~~~~~~~ A lack of boundaries invites a lack of respect.
