Thank you for your honesty UW. I appreciate that you keep it real. This affects us, not just for one year or two years or five years, but forever.
I can relate to your son in how he is feeling. I felt like I had a M, then one day I didn't. Again, I believed it would be FOREVER. My mistake was that I took that R for granted, one of my lessons learned. Still... How to ever learn to trust and feel safe again? I was betrayed by my H and close friend. I have questioned how I see people, my willingness to give trust. Still trying to figure out what I need to learn from that...
I think acceptance is a work in progress, something to continually tweak as new things arise.
Read some great stuff from an old thread Snodderly started years ago. Found something I will share later.
Nap time here, so I am taking advantage, and napping too.
One last thought....
Of course I've been thinking about this upcoming "golf" trip. I can't shake the feeling that it is significant. It's not like they haven't gone away before, he was just away in April. I didn't feel this way then.
With all the tests my MLCer has placed before me, I feel like this is my final exam, and I don't want to bomb it. Or maybe it's HIS final exam. Who knows.
Taking my nap now
Bomb January 2012 - doesn't feel the same about me
~ "There is nothing love cannot face; there is no limit to its faith, hope, and endurance."
