Having a rough day today, it seems like since i've moved out she's getting worse. I stopped by our home to pick up a few things yesterday and she was being really short and snappy... So I asked what was wrong she said she's going through tons of emotions, one day she's angry to see me but is upset when she doesn't because she misses me. She feels like she still isn't getting space on one hand but on the other it's a lot of space. I'm so confused. She has been extremely distant and i'm in my angry phase because i'm trying to give what she asked for and it still seems it isn't good enough.
I went out last night with a buddy of mine and she sent me a text and asked was I out, I responded "yes why?" her response "no reason at all." It's like i'm dealing with 3 different people. I then sent her a text and said:
"Babe, tomorrow isn't promised to either of us I want you to know I love you and I don't want what we're going through right now to define what we've meant to each other. Stay strong, and I hope you find yourself through all of this. You have my support."
Her response:
"Just need space"
So that's were I left it. I'm not sure where I am emotionally but I'm better than i've been. Other than my marriage my life is great, It's just the thing that means to most is non existent. And to me that is HUGE, because tomorrow isn't promised and the way "I" feel that is crux of everything, if you could no longer touch, see, or hear them again would what we are all going through be worth it or matter?
