omg i cant do this. i just can not do this. I m staying with my dad and already feel the health getting worse. Head killing me from smoke smell. Eyes are etchy everything smell so effin dark gloomy. I told eveyone this is what was going to happen and it is the first night. i have to get the f out of here like in the next week for get buying i do not care.
All i can think is how this is all not good for me and my health. mentally and physicaly.
I also just think well the wife has the upper hand on this now, she has someone in her life (i do not) she has her own place ( I dont). WTF does it get any better. cause it just seems to be getting worse for me. Yup depresstion not going to get better now.
OK i have to go get the hell out out here for a little. get freash air. i am sitting here and crying as i type im done done done done done
