Stuck between a rock and a hard place!

[dorightman]

It's been 3 months since I moved out of the house. I have been sleeping at the apt most nights, but I spend the days at the house taking care of the dog and picking up the kids from school.
W comes home from work and I leave to work in the early evenings. Weekends are usually spent w kids, but not as a family, w takes one, I take the other.

There has been little to no R talk for the past couple months. W texts me when she needs me to help with anything. Talk is just about coordinating for the kids.
We are in IC separately with separate C's. W makes plans with her friends and kids without including me.

I have been supportive and loving and patient during this time. I decided I would do my best to extend myself to her lovingly no matter what negative vibes she projects towards me. I have been doing GAL and focusing on my kids and my work.

The cost of renting an apt on top of all the other bills has been difficult to manage for me and I asked my W if it would be possible to try living at home again. I told her things have calmed down between us, I've worked on myself for awhile now and the time has made things much calmer between us. I no longer cry or act out in front of her, or even when I'm alone. I think I'm finished the grieving stage.

Her response was that she didn't want to live with me, but that she understands it's my house too and she can't prevent me from returning home. She wants to talk about it in therapy next week, but I have to let my landlord know by tomorrow ! , otherwise I have to pay another months rent and I don't have the money.

I'm torn about it. I don't know what to do. If I give notice tomorrow, I will have a month to move out. I feel like if I do move back, I will be able to handle it much better then before. I feel more detached, although not fully detached. I would GAL as much as possible. I'm worried about making the decision myself and then having W resent me for it, but I also know that she doesn't want me to move back.
She is still on the Divorce path, she is still angry and resentful. She has not done any work to try to deal with her negative feelings towards me and all my loving actions towards her have not made any impact at all.

I told her if I kept the apt, she would have to help pay more bills, but she can't afford too either!

Stuck between a rock and a hard place! Any advice or thought greatly appreciated!