At lunch today I clicked on the tv. Young & the Restless. It's been a while since I've seen that old soap. I caught Lauren, who cheated in an affair on her husband Michael, begging him to forgive her and work out their marriage. Michael just can't get past it. He's filing for divorce.
JOURNAL: Sometimes I wonder what the F* I am doing. My W cheated. A longterm A. Not a drunken mistep. A full on relationship. She said "I love you" to this person. I have heard it and seen it in emails and texts. I repeat... I walked in once and HEARD my W say "I love you too" to her AP. Just before I drove my W to the hospital for surgery and nursed her back to health. So again, sometimes I think of these things and I say to myself... "What the H*ll RT!!!" She should be begging me not to D. It's one of those days. What am I doing?... That freaking love/commitment/marriage thing.
I better get a flipping trip to DisneyLand when all is said and done!!!
Me(F):40 WAW:44 T:13yrs M:9yrs BD:2/12 (I saw a text) ILYBINILWY: 5/12 PA admission: 12/12 (began 3/11) S:2/13 Moves in w/AP D begins: 7/13 W moves home to R: 10/13
